You don't have to face

The cold cold blue

I may turn away

But never from you

 

If your love is true.

 

Empty and alone

Everything you do

And a hand to hold

Never kept from you

If your love is true

 

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Every look upon my back

Silent eyes watching over me

Everything that I am

I cannot see what they see

 

Will I fall alone upon my knees

Fumbling for what I know

I have lost all that once was me

I cannot lift my head that hangs so low

 

This burden so heavy my back will break

Deep in the dark I bear this alone

The threat unreal fear is what I make

Hiding in sorrow I've lost my precious home

 

Every step upon the dirt

Brings filth I cannot shed

A new realm of pain and hurt

I haven't the comfort of your bed

 

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My life disrupted, my heart corrupted.  All because of you.

 

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I feel vulnerable, miserable, and alone.  I suddenly feel so different in a world that has not changed.  So pardon me while I step out on a permanent vacation from life.

 

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Alone in a crowd

What am I to do

Searching for someone

Anyone but you

Always alone

No matter how free

Searching for someone

Anyone but me

 

Our earth departed,

love is in the sky.

I'm falling toward Apotheosis,

and I can't see why.

Must be this pedestal you've put me on.

 

Midnight,

Daylight.

What is time?

Winter,

Summer.

When are we happy?

The future and the past.

Neither seem right.

The present is now,

But now is past.

Time goes so fast.

Cold is cold to me,

But warm to others.

What is considered constant

is not really constant.

There is no constant.

So what is real?

What is illusion?

Each is the other

and neither really is.

Pure thought,

could be purely empty.

Or maybe just a dream.

 

She was my friend.

A friend 'till the end.

Now the end is here,

and the world is to fear.

 

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I am the burden

weighing heavy on your shoulders.

Your thoughts march on

like unforgiven soldiers.

I could be there for you.

But as I said,

I am the burden

and the hate in your head.

Somehow it's my fault.

Somehow it's my wrong.

If that's what you wanna think,

then I'll go along.

I can't change what you think of me.

No matter how hard I try.

Your mind is set.

And I don't dare ask why.

 

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Once forgotten

Long remembered

Memories fade in time

But not those which are mine.

A short lived life

With smiles and with tears.

I am immortal,

as long as you remember.

 

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Is far too steep

I cannot escape

This darkness so deep

 

I cannot face you

You'll never see

So many secrets

Only for me

 

Tell me anything

You say to me

'Cause you only have eyes

Only for me

 

But you do not know

What is to be told

The sorrow and fear

That will unfold

 

What if I tell you

What if I say

I am what I am

You'll turn away

 

So I cannot face you

You'll never see

So many secrets

Only for me

 

You are beautiful.

Not because of the way you look or how you dress.  You are beautiful just being.  People are drawn to you as I am drawn to you.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have what you have, to be what you are.  I could never be anything close to you.

I could never be

beautiful.

Beautiful like you.

 

I need a light in the darkness

   a smile in the tears

   a laugh in the sorrow

   and freedom from fears.

I need to stand in the ruins

   to rise when I fall

   to love when there's hatred

   and freedom from all.

 

There is a lonely soul in these empty days

People seem strange in so many ways

Time loses momentum but I must go free

If I lose pace, the world will leave me.

 

I seek myself

in the universe.

I can't find me anywhere.

Only to discover,

that I am everywhere,

and everywhere is in me.

 

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In the city with no ends,

time ran at my own pace.

Not knowing where I went,

always ending up in the right place.

In the midst of souls

where the party went on,

from dawn 'till dusk,

and dusk 'till dawn.

In the city of Key West

where freedom wore its best,

I was allowed to roam

and finally found a home.

 

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I hide in a corner

with nothing to hold.

My tears fall like the rain outside my window.

Heavy and neverending.

The stains on my cheek

are beginning to get old.

I can't find the answers I seek

and I can't warm this cold.

 

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I will burn in hell

I already know this

This I know so well

 

You can't accept me

Now that you know

How dare I ask

You'd sink so low

 

So what am I

Or how am I

You ask the question

But I must lie

 

'Cause you can't hear

An answer that's real

I hide in my closet

Take time to heal

 

But losing you

I cannot take

So I'll tell the lies

The truth, you can make

 

Wandering through my blood

are the knights of fire.

Waging a war

between mind and desire.

I am lost without you.

Help me find my way.

But don't come too close

for I can't let you stay.

You mean so much to me

but I can't let my heart win.

If my mind is lost

I give in to sin.

 

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I don't know you.

But yet I do.

You are my friend.

Someone to talk to.

I thought I knew you,

but I guess I was wrong.

And the kicker is,

I've known you so long.

But the things you do,

I cannot understand.

I know you are upset,

so I lend a hand.

But you don't take it,

and I don't know why.

Maybe you don't trust me.

Maybe you're afraid you'll cry.

There's no way I can fix

all your sorrow and hurt.

And I can't make a difference,

even with effort.

But if you let me,

I'll give you my heart.

It won't fix everything,

but at least its a start.

 

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My body is motionless,

yet my mind is not still.

The soft shadows on the walls

set my imagination adrift.

All the worries of my world,

swiftly sail away.

I am happy here.

And I plan to stay.

 

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whatever changes that may

bring tears to my eyes

and turn night into day

 

The warmth in your tone

and whatever you say,

I'd take it for granted.

It was yours today.

 

And wanting for love

so alone I will lay.

Every part of you,

something so far away.

 

A mother with whom to love,

A friend with whom to share.

My loving mother Mary,

What would I do without you there?

 

On the long winding road,

I have your hand to hold.

With your unending help,

I've no fear of growing old.

 

Many smiling happy days,

Where tears were few.

My loving mother Mary,

What would I do without you?

 

My heart is pounding.

The screams are sounding.

Running with great speed,

I'm moving withough heed.

What am I running from?

When will it ever come?

I don't know.

But it frightens me so.

 

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This pain.

It hurts me so.

I want to hold you,

and not let go.

But that can never happen.

That I know.

The thought of it hurts me.

But it is the pain I cannot show.

I must keep it deep within,

as it continues to grow.

 

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I am nothing.

I am worth nothing.

I feel nothing.

I get nothing.

I give nothing.

I fear nothing.

I love nothing.

I share nothing.

I fight nothing.

I desire nothing.

I am worth nothing.

I am nothing.

I want out.

 

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